:-)

Become who you hate

2011-07-15T22:13:00.002+10:00

For the past few years, people around me beg attention when they need you. A person whom you never spoken to; they've never gave a thought of talking to you, suddenly start a conversation with you. You knew they need you.

As time fly, you started to pick up what you've learned. Only talk to people when you need them. One day you look back and realize who you've became....

Friends = Foe?

2010-10-09T12:18:00.000+10:00

I HATE MY LIFE!!!!
60% of my friends are compeditors
30% don't communicate a lot
10% is awesome

orz.................

people change

2010-10-06T19:43:00.000+10:00

I hate life changes, either its body change or personality change. People change all the time, your friends change and when they do it's some time bad. If they change their likes to another thing, you and them may not stay on the same page. When that happens...it may be negative and negative instead of - and +.

"WTF is wrong with your pessimistic head?"
what? me, pessimistic? pfft, wrong, just being real towards the reality. COS IT HAPPENS ALL THE TIME

- Christine

First day of school of term 4

2010-10-04T21:13:00.000+10:00

IS BULL CRAP!!!!
TOTALLY BORING AND STUPID!!!
I HHHHAAAAAAAATTTTTTTTTTEEEEEEEE IT
="=.....

- C.L.

Day Dream magazine/manga

2010-10-02T16:51:00.000+10:00

hello people, sup? Another manga again? yes, it is....=\ i've only finished 5 pages so far....technically 4~~

this manga isn't posted on any site yet~~~

anyway~~~ just wanted to post sth~~`

- Christine

IS tomorrow a better day?

2010-09-12T18:37:00.000+10:00

"Tomorrow will be a better day"
yeah, keep on thinking that. You all know it's just a lie. If things that are suppose to be done isn't, tomorrow won't be a better day. It still be a dreadful day like today or yesterday.

but sometimes...we do need a little lie to make ourselves feel better...which is pretty sad, but depends on where you use it on~

Sudden

2010-09-10T07:25:00.000+10:00

Seeing him as a dead man, my heart sank as a hundred million pieces. The broken words that were stuck in my mouth were not to be spit out. I feel like I can no longer catch a bit of breath. Holding on to your hand that is turning cold, knowing it will never be warm again….made my heart hurt.
With a broken heart right now, I am not to admit myself as a broken person. I am not in pieces, I can do without you, no matter how hard it is….
I held my tears from bursting out….

why do people do that?

2010-09-04T07:58:00.000+10:00

why do people do what? well, why do people lie to impress people. For example, a graphic bamboo tablet. I bought it for 200 nearly 300 dollars, and after me and my sister bought it. We started drawing with it, then we started to draw on msn stuff.

Right after we started chatting with people, two of them actually went to bought one as well. I mean...why do you do that? you don't even use it often!

Now guess wat
one of them doesn't even know how to use it, some kept of asking me for help and stuff.

I'm not done yet...after that, i was chatting with another person, then we started drawing as well. They said they have a tablet it's just that they never use it.

hmm.....is it a lie or a truth?

why do people do that? trying to impress other people, or do they just simply think i am not some one that can be better than them on sth?

i am not giving myself too many credits, cos that is just..up myself~~

any who. am I not able to like art more than they do? am i not worth to like something just because my grades are bad and ONLY in art i get As in..............

Why do you copy what I do?? is it because I am not worth doing all those things and you are more worthwhile than me?

Ok fine, that's it. One more person that copy's what I do, I am not talking to them. EVER AGAIN!!!!

Love? not

2010-09-02T20:35:00.000+10:00

pft, I am not a loving person. Either way, loving people or they loving me. It is funny how I write about topic of "love".

Well, this is why I wrote it. It was inspired from a friend, she and her bf is having a difficult time. I'm not even sure if they're together any more. Course, I don't find this amusing or anything.

All I can think of is...
WOW, they were so madly in love. What happened?

How can a person, I mean, two people. Fall out of love, that quick! It's like "click" they're in love, "click" they are not again.

What's with that?! I am not a expert of that (course not) but, just wondering....how do people do that? To me, it's just ridiculously stupid.

They're relationship is just like a typhoon. It comes and goes...

Oh well, it's none of my business, just wondering, because I really don't get it

Fade In and Out: pt 3 – end

2010-08-31T20:07:00.000+10:00

Each day, an inch was brought to us. We became closer. My story is almost complete, about that girl. I am not a sad person, but I do wish not for this story to have a sad ending. This girl is practical, she calculates the situation. She sees an event and comes out with a bunch or possible. From this girl, I learnt some of that.
~*~*~*~*~*~
From this boy, I learnt to be romantic. I learnt to put down some practical things and think or a more romantic way, thinking it’ll work out instead or losing it. Have faith.
However, the romantic thoughts still lead me to a grey theme. I hope this ends with happiness.
~*~*~*~*~*~
Today is the first day of work. As I walked on the road, with a big smile hanging on my face; a sudden scream occurred. It was a bus that lost its control and slipped through its way to a shop. In it got and stopped.
The police arrived not after long a few ambulances too. Two of the passengers were strongly injured; three was dead; the driver was burnt badly, that you can no longer recognize him as a human being. The smell of burnt things floats in the air, the ashes are flying everywhere. Flames, smokes, dust are everywhere.
~*~*~*~*~*~
As I was thinking of that thought on the bus with her to our first date destination. Suddenly the bus started to lose its control. The wheel was turning from directions to another like there was butter on it.
Passengers screamed, the driver is cursing. Like a flash, the bus crashed.
~*~*~*~*~*~
My sight dropped into darkness, my vision quickly faded. I am stuck, stuck in his arms. After a few minutes I faintly open my eyes, I saw his face. It didn’t have a peaceful smile as he usually did. Instead, he was in pain. His breath is no longer exchanging with seconds. His heart started to lose its live. No beats are made; no sounds are to be heard.
His white shirt is no longer white; it was bleached with blood and dyed with dust. My heart was hurting; my body is too weak to allow me to speak.
A second passed, perhaps a minute?
Someone pulled me away from him.
Another person also took him away.
We exit to different directions.
He entered a greyish black bag.
I entered a white van.
My heart hurts, my body hurts, and my throat hurts.
My tears struggle to come out as I try to hold them back.
I want to see you again, I want to hear your voice again, and I want to be with you again.
I don’t want to miss you, we will never meet again. I bet no matter how loud I yell now, those words will never reach you.
I want my body to be as cold as you, I want my soul to be with you….
I want to meet you again.

Fade in and out....the light of the world....remains hopeless

Fade In and Out: pt 2

2010-08-31T20:06:00.001+10:00

Standing, waiting, starring in the air; thinking of my next story of a girl. Who sits on the chair in the train station, waiting for the train to come. I never looked at her; I was too busy of thinking if she’d think I am weird. So I use an ipod as a mirror to see. She never raises her head, is she sleeping? No, I think not. What is she thinking? What is it about the floor that is so interesting, she stares at them every time.
A second, a minute, perhaps an hour passed. The train came, I lead myself to the door, you walked in from another door.
We may never meet, maybe.
One day, she raised your head. Walked to me and stood beside me. I was amazed yet I showed it on my face. I peeked at you quickly; you caught me and peeked back.
We entered the same door.
Set together.
Stared at the window in front of us.
Every second of your face was captured in the window. I stamped every of your blinks and expression of you in my head. The city behind you, faded in and out. This city, and you; are beautiful. That journey, I am happy.

Fade In and Out: pt 1

2010-08-31T20:05:00.000+10:00

OMG, this is so long. I really should start on my maths assignment D8
Hope you’ll enjoy it~~~
Still, ignore my lame writing skills~~~
= Christine
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Sitting on the chairs that train station provided, waiting for the one to come. Minutes and seconds flies. Looking at your shadow on the floor, my head is too heavy by the weight of the thoughts; the chances of you looking at me, my reactions, your reactions.
Another minute passed, the train had arrived. Your shadow started to leave my sight, I slowly got up. We entered different doors. Our eyes never met, we may never meet.
The next day, same; me, sitting; you standing…Neither of us know how near we are.
Another day passed…a month slipped…then one follows another.
I see you every day, yet you notice it. Finally, I gathered all my courage to raise my head. I saw you clearly, the hair under that hat; the shirt you’re wearing; the bag and ipod that you’re holding.
I stood up, walked a few steps, until I am beside you.
We may be parallel, but at least we meet by standing together. Although the eyes are never met, the thought was never made. If one of us decides to make the move first, it’s another equation.
That day, you peeked at me; I peeked back.
We entered the same door.
Set together.
Stared at the window in front of us.
The night sky was pitching black. Windows of light was shinning on buildings. Amazingly beautiful city view presented on that single window. That single window we stared.
No words were said; no emotions were felt. That simple moment, was locked in my heart.
As the view fades in and out through the tunnels; I printed every facial expression of him that was reflected during the lost of the city, in my head.
I am happy.

My Biggest fears

2010-08-30T21:54:00.000+10:00

yay, my biggest fears, after confessing them i feel no shame about it.

1. Crowds
2. Boys (but i am not a homo)
3. bugs
4. presentation
5. reality
6. talking
7. more...

Cherry Blossom Tree pt2

2010-08-29T14:29:00.000+10:00

If your still reading, U ARE AWEOSME! If you commented on the article, YOU ARE AWESOMELY GREAT!

= Christine

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Spring turned into summer, autumn followed summer, then it ended with winter as a period to the year. The cycle repeats itself again and again until the world ends.

Sadly their love ended as the period is drawn. That bloody little dot that's attach to every tale of the sentence is like a big rock in the road.

The heat of love ended and turned into chilly autumn. Last it couldn't last, thin layer of love is just like the crust on the ice. One step can easily make you fall. She never paid attention to his feelings he never cared about what she was doing.

You thought by hiding all these secrets from her would help your relationship, guess you're wrong.

You thought by ignoring all those secrets of his would help your relationship, guess you're wrong too.

Now they're listening to each other's favourite songs, healing their feelings. Wonder if they could start again...

She's afraid of facing the reality alone that's why he was there. He hates being alone that's why she was there.

Odd combination of pair have we got here. No? Why don't they end the winter and create another spring again. Don't they like it?

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They walked pass each other today... In his arm it's not her shoulders. In her right hand, it's not his left hand.

What could have changed if they apologised? maybe they wouldn't loose all hope, because in everyone's eyes, the crimson ribbon is still there.

Cherry Blossom Tree pt1

2010-08-29T14:09:00.000+10:00

please ignore any noobish writing, I am not a writer but I do like to express my feelings from time to time using words. Thank you

= Christine

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What happened to your love, what happened to the memories between you two? It was so great and tight, it was so long and sweet. That day she cried, cried so hard that she nearly stopped breathing. Her sadness over flowed her chest cause it to hurt.

That moment, he broke down. Not believing that was over, the red, long, tight crimson ribbon was broken. It was ripped and tangled. It's over, it's gone....nothing is left but their broken hearts.

Hopeless, they're hopeless...everything that remains between them is dirt and broken pieces of their trust and love. The broken jar of memories lingers in the photo they had. She torn them, he burnt them.

They both done a fantastic job of killing the love.

Blossoms no longer bloom, leaves are no longer glory green. Nothing is like what it was suppose to shine. Ugliness is the leftovers. Rotten smell of faith drifts in the air. Ashes of memories floats on to the surface of their hands. They dirty their hands by smudging them on to everything, anything, to get rid of the ashes...

Look what the result is, increasing the pain. Now the ashes are on everything, try cleaning them up. They found they can't....

to be continued....

http://roadnearthelighthouse.blogspot.com/2010/08/cherry-blossom-tree-pt2.html

Jobs!

2010-08-24T21:49:00.000+10:00

Let me see what kind of jobs i can get....i'd like to work at a sushi shop that's near where i'm living...i just need to ask the boss....>.>

I HATE REAL LIFE!!! virtual is way better...

Experiemnt day 2

2010-08-23T07:05:00.001+10:00

I forgot to write this yesterday, but now it's day to so lets just let it be~~

I made an new blog called "Vallery Girl"

it's an experiment of "is love life more popular as a blog" kind of thing~~

untitled

2010-08-16T21:59:00.000+10:00

I SWEAR!!! if i don't stop coughing right now, i will need to take all sorts of medicine tmrw morning, until i am sure that i won't end up coughing my organs out at school...

latest discovery

2010-08-15T15:13:00.000+10:00

Apple, mint ice cream, creamy chocolate ice cream and milk does not go together....

A friggin post during my sick day

2010-08-13T09:41:00.000+10:00

I should be in school right now, but I'm sick >D

Well....actually its nothing to be happy about...I feel like a dead person..="=

Anyway, that's not important. I really don't get why people add "dear readers" or sth like that before their blog post...I mean (no offence) do people actually read them? If there are no followers or what so ever...why bother adding those?

I am a very practical person, if that's the right word that I'm using....

So I'll just put this straight, why bother doing something that no one cares? I take this blog as my own diary, so when ever there is/are comment(s) I am happy, but when there isn't...I don't really care....

I don't bother adding "dear readers" because I'm not even sure if people wanna read these boring crap about a sad lonely person that barely has a life...

Sometimes...thinking yourself as something you are but you're actually not...is just making a fool of yourself....

Camera caused me moneyless

2010-08-08T18:02:00.000+10:00

I bought a new camera, since the previous one got killed by sea water....EVIL!

The new camera costed $300 or sth... anyway, I'm super broke right now, so if you commission me I'd love you forever...not like you want my love or any thing orz...I will finish your commission faster than my requests.

Am I really blogging here or am I just advertising?

Any who...dad told me to get a job, but it looks really scary....I CAN'T SPEAK UP WHEN I TALK TO PEOPLE WHO I NEVER KNEW!...sometimes not even people I knew for a long time...

I really should be finishing up my graphics hw instead of blogging...

TTYL~ (if you're still reading and want to read more...i guess not)

I'm off~

Chibi Commission Open

2010-08-07T19:34:00.000+10:00

If you are interested in my chibi styles, commission me please. It'll look like the one I have on my banner~

Money Type: US Dollars

Payment way: Paypal or cash

Cash payment are only available for people who know me in the non-virtual world, also cash will need to be convert to AU dollars. If you pay by cash, $0.30 off.

Received way: The commission will be post on this blog.

The picture will be:

Choose a size that you want the picture to be; the options below are just standard sizes. Just giving you an idea of how big (probably) it may be.

- 1000x1000 pixels, resolution 300
- 2100x1500 pixels = 7x5 inches, resolution 300 (horizontal or vertical)

Chibi:

The chibi will be full body, unless you don’t want it to be full body. Which length of the chibi doesn’t matter, it won’t add fees or what so ever to the price.

Picture:
- B&W: $0.50 (line art)

- B&W: $1.00 (screentoned)
- Coloured: $1.30 (very platform, base colour + shade)
- Coloured: $2.00 (more detailed, base colour + shade + shine + blush...etc.)

Amount of character(s):
- $0.50 per character

Optional:

Backgrounds:
- Coloured background (gradient, dots, stripes...etc): $0.30
- Photo background (photo taken by me): $0.20
- Landscapes (forest, buildings...etc.): $0.30
- Transparent: $0.10
- Blank (white background): free

Extra items:

For example, like animals, cars, food. Something that is not a anatomy that is similar to human.
- Mega huge objects (7~10 inch or above): $0.40
- Huge objects (4~6 inch): $0.30
- Medium objects (1~3 inch): $0.20
- Small objects (3~6 cm)$0.10
- Super objects (1~2 cm)$0.05

Complication for the item(s): This only matters if you wanted me to draw an extra item beside your character
- Very detailed: $0.05
- Very simple: free

Format:
- Strip comic (vertical): $0.70 per block
- Manga Page: $0.90 per page

Value Packs

Romantic Pack: $2.40
2 characters, fully choice 2 colouring, plus background and 1~3 extra items. You can decide what they are doing, except hentai things.

Paparazzi Pack: $2.20
1~3 characters surprised each reacted differently or same (depends on the personality), fully choice 2 colouring and a photographed. You can choose what were they doing that got busted.

If you are interested on commissioning me, comment please =] and if you commissioned me, you just made my day. Thank you if you do, I am looking for a job atm...lols...in need of money...
Have a nice day~<3

inspiration...please come to me

2010-07-08T22:17:00.001+10:00

I feel like crying right now, my hands are weak...I wanna draw something but nothing is coming. My heart is breaking....i don't wanna loose the ability of drawing, it's one of the happiest thing i've ever done through out my life. Please, don't die on me right now....

up coming event/manga

2010-06-28T12:34:00.000+10:00

An unknown virus called "Pellucid" enters the earth's atmosphere and infects the living creatures.
The infected adapt, dies or mutates. Under this threating condition, many fails to live.
Only a few manages to survive.

A city called, "Brisbane" in Australia, happens to have some of the few survivors.
A girl, alone, struggles to live. The girl keeps a journal and records the vital information in order to guide herself trough this fight.

Mutants roaming through the city. Virus disguised in the air that every living breathes. Everything is attempting to exterminate each other to survive.

Will she live?
Find out.

Internet

2010-06-23T13:02:00.000+10:00

i had internet back for one week already
whatever, winter vacation is starting for some today or last night xD
have fun and wat so ever
im hungry right now so bye~

none

2010-06-03T06:44:00.000+10:00

sigh....這張桌子已經陪了我....兩年多了...
現在要丟掉...
有一點傷心........
回來再繼續type吧

Ｍｏｖｉｎｇ

2010-06-03T06:39:00.000+10:00

Ｉｔ’ｓ　６：３９ＡＭ　ｒｉｇｈｔ　ｎｏｗ，　ａｎｄ　ｉｍ　ｓｔｉｌｌ　ｎｏｔ　ｆｉｎｉｓｈ　ｐａｃｋｉｎｇ。。。。
ｂｕｔ　ｍｏｒｅ　ｉｍｐｏｒｔａｎｔ　ｉｓ　ｔｈａｔ　ｉ　ｄｉｄｎ’ｔ　ｄｏ　ｍｙ　ｈｗ。。。
ｉ　ｄｉｄｎ’ｔ　ｈａｖｅ　ｔｉｍｅ。。。ｉ　ｓｔａｒｔｅｄ　ｄｏｉｎｇ　ｉｔ　ａｔ　１１：００　ｏｒ　ｓｏ。。。
ｓｈｉｔ，　ｉ’ｍ　ｄｏｏｍｅｄ。。。

ｐｓ：　ｗｅ’ｒｅ　ｍｏｖｉｎｇ　ｔｏｄａｙ。。。。ｉ　ｗｉｌｌ　ｍｉｓｓ　ｍｙ　ｒｏｏｍ。。。

I CANNOT BLIEVE IT!

2010-05-30T18:42:00.000+10:00

today, we just finished an awesome game...
can't believe it >w<
ok whatever, my stomach hurts and it's late
goodnight

i'll continue this later....or sth

dude...

2010-05-26T20:23:00.000+10:00

like that was totally awesome~
= = whatever....
030 what?
GO F URSELF! D<
....if you're looking for non-sense things...then you came to the right place....
i lose my point or what i wanna say at last..

I AM SICK AND TIRED

2010-05-25T08:48:00.000+10:00

I AM SICK AND TIRED OF YOUR BULLSHIT ATTITUDE!!!!, YOU DO NOT CARE ABOUT HOW PEOPLE, AND THE ONES WHO ARE TRYING TO HELP YOU!!
yeah, just swear at me like...i don't know, your personal crap! It is not my fault and you are a stupid bitch who thinks swearing at people makes you the boss!
WELL, GUESS WHAT! STUPID WHORE! YOU'RE THE MAJOR BITCH HERE, STOP BLAMING THINGS ON ME WHEN YOU'RE NOT EVEN TRYING!
FUCK YOU, WISH YOU'RE DEAD!

yes, whatever, WHAT?!

2010-05-24T21:33:00.000+10:00

1st off, i updated the "Manga" page...2 post there~ so yeah, go check it out =D
2nd, i was just doing my math..(not really writing anything though..) and then my mom knocked on the door really hard. I shouted "I'M DOING IT!!!!" she stared at me...and then she said "what classes do you have tomorrow morning?"
"what's this for?"
"just tell me!"
"art and english, what about it?"
"oh, i was wondering do you wanna go see a house and stuff..."
"oh......"
"i think not, because you've already taken so many days off last week, i'll ask cath"
"..."

yeah.....orz.....

Rain Rain

2010-05-21T21:34:00.000+10:00

it's 9:34Pm here~
my family is sleeping (very early)
somehow, today everyone seems to be tired, but then again, it's a tiring week. It's friday night, rain is just pouring, hitting on every roof like stones. You now should/can imagin how big it is....i got waken by the noise it made...now i can't go back to bed = =

people who are up themselves

2010-05-20T23:04:00.000+10:00

I was just chatting with Susan just then. We were talking about how some people are really up themselves and stuff. Well, don’t be afraid to write and post stuffs on your blog…I mean…its like a diary of yours to publicly show the world…no one actually cares if you’re up yourself or not….unless…this kind: “OMG, I AM SOOOOO PRETTY” “any clothes that I put on makes them look hotter~”…I don’t even know what I’m typing but…just pointing out some POV..

Anyways, some people clicked your site to get what they want…for example…if today you’ve post like…awesome videos on your blog and got popular with that. When you start typing some crap, people actually comment and care, but if you put TOO MANY crap that are just repetitive stuffs…then…you will lose some people….whatever, up to your own choice~ I don’t know…

Every time I type a crap thing, I always lose my point in the end…HOW STUPID!

That's How I Left It There

2010-05-18T14:35:00.000+10:00

That's how i left it there, so I will leave it there....
- Christine...

="=

UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-05-13T20:28:00.000+10:00

Well...whatever, this week is ending and my life was damaged this week from all the pain i've been getting from my body....stomachache(sp?), back pain, muscle(sp?) pain also the famous, "HEADCHE".....

I got inspired a lot lately so that's one thing to be happy about....

RIGHT, RIGHT! also, i just wanna say this
"sometimes, when you've seen all these fancy drawings that you can never compare your's with. Changing a taste is great...like, whenever you finish eating something oily, its great to eat something that's not...Same goes with my taste of art, making a picture "super-ultra-mega-fancy" is not always the "best"...it is fun coloring and all these stuffs..." whatever...i'm losing my point...so yeah, i'd like to work on my scraps with simple styles and with those "monthly-creations" i'll put a lot more effort into it...

i'm going to finish my hws now...

I LOST MY GRAPHICS HWs....THE WHOLE PROJECT IS GONE...except for the revit one...i should be thankful....

- chirstine

Walk on stage

2010-05-05T21:50:00.000+10:00

My heart was beating so fast although there's still 6 more speaches left until my turn. I tried to breathe deep, but failed...it didn't work on me. So I tried drinking some water...don't know why but I think it'll cool my heart down somehow. Later on when another person finishes, I start breathing again...

I flashed back of all the people who told me tips, one of my friend said to imagine everyone nude, my mom said don't worry everything will be fine and some other people's stuff...

Those words did calm me down a bit but not all, I started looking around the classroom. People who haven't gone on stage are reviewing over their scrips, some are playing with their mobile, some are sleeping, another 'some' are looking down at their work...so yeah...the result is only 10~15 people looking....I think~

SO yeah, that made my heart beat slightly slower...

Cath

2010-05-02T23:10:00.000+10:00

Cath isn't playing Xbox tonignt D8, and I can't play it either...I tend to die much...so I have to play some other games that allows my death. But the game that I like is not going to be seen tonight, becos she's not playing it...she's asleep ="=

gosh, sob plz~

and im off~

what's wrong?

2010-04-29T18:32:00.000+10:00

My brain, its forgetting a lot of things these days....and I have no idea why. Maybe it's something to do with my sleeping habbits....

Links~~~

2010-04-27T06:07:00.000+10:00

FINALLY! i made my first link to my friend on blogspot =]. The link is right under the comment box, just pop a comment (if i kno you) under this post if you'd like me to have a link to you =]. Also, if you don't like your face being on the button, msn me or sth and share what you'd like me to do for you link =]....
NOT IN THE COMMENT BOX ON THE SIDE BAR, BUT THE ONE UNDER THIS ARTICLE

Cried Loads

2010-04-25T09:53:00.000+10:00

i just finishing reading a short fiction on the interent. Not much, probably 1 and a half page, BUT i cried. The writer wrote it too...touching!!! I'm not good with words, so i'm not gonna type much now. Anyways, with the help of the song that i was listening to, it made it more touching. TwT

It's already gone

2010-04-24T08:58:00.001+10:00

Of course, love doesn't last for ever. The love I gave to my pencils, erasers, pens, tools are not gone yet. People tend to change their heart and move on until they find a certain person and spend their whole life with them. Lols, i don't really care~

My pencils, they end up dying by my stupidity. Either they drop down from the bench and broke their head (my lovely silver star pencil - TW $25). Typical kind of death happens...most of them got stolen by some sl*ts, or they got lost some where in the world. I still miss them T_T

Am I treating my art tools too serious?....whatever

Say I don't have a life, a lover, a brain for school~

I don't think I'm going to mind...all that much was....

Nothing more or less that I want to say....

(gosh, another non-sense journal)

Ja, I'm off~

Love of life

2010-04-23T19:44:00.000+10:00

We've only met in the summer, it was winter there. Though you were standing there, with your friends. You look rather lonely, and so I thought of buying you. I bought another friend of your's also with you along. The time we've been together are lovely and fun....yet...you were lost.

And I've only thought of you today, the busiest morning I've had. You were left on the desk on some random math study. When I went back for you again....you are no where to be found....My english sucks for sure, nothing to doubt about....

BUT I REALLY REALL REALLY MISS YOU, MY DEAR WHITE PENCIL!!! Black pencil and I are waiting for your return, our hope never faded......

Dx

Animation

2010-04-18T22:25:00.000+10:00

= v = i got inspired again~~
haha, i'm failing math, it's not time to get inspired!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
=3=..yeah...shitty C-
(sigh) I SWEAR I'LL DO MATHs B next semester...
="=...that doesn't make sense does it.....?

Winter and stomach...doesn't go...together...

2010-04-16T20:04:00.000+10:00

winter has finally slowly arrive...its getting pretty cold...or is it autum? dunno~
but my stomach has been hurting since ths morning....just when the weather starts turning cold ="=...ugh...
i've been wearing a shirt and running around the campus all day...its kidna hard not to get a cold or anything....(sigh)...needs too get a jumper some time...my old one (the one that i left in my closet all summer vacation) has 4~6 holes in it 0-0...sad.....
>.>...watever, thanks for all the page veiws~
and im off~

HIGH TENSION!

2010-04-14T19:40:00.000+10:00

not.....
=3=....................................................................................wat?
WTF?!
does this post make any sense

answer is:

NO~

blah blah blah~~~~~
there's a test tmrw~
whatever

Tuesday...worst day...i've ever lived for....

2010-04-13T21:18:00.000+10:00

1st....got into some serious fight on FB...with some stupid kids...
2nd....lost a text pal by my own stuff....orz..
i do not want to continue anymore.....it's been an awful day for me, not just by these two reasons...but other loads

ALL TIME DRUG!

2010-04-12T20:51:00.000+10:00

*sigh a bunch* I can't live without my drug....I'm so addicted to it, it's nothing harmful rly xDD. It's not those, pills/needles drugs you're thinking about xP. People that knows me SUPER WELL! that I tell SECRETS to, will know xD
I NEED MORE!

And so....

2010-04-11T16:06:00.000+10:00

I went to supa nova and saw "griffith university" the film section...
it looks awesome, i wanna do it D8. Film and Animation, sounds fun :D

Pervertive conversation

2010-04-04T00:14:00.000+10:00

....ok, this is not what you thought (whatever it is)
no those kind of conversations in chatrooms~, that you hook up with unknown guys
nope....not those, or whatever 18+ you're thinking.

as you grow, the conversations starts to get a bit "adult humour"? (perhaps?)
i mean, i hang out on internets a lot, and chatted to a bunch of people. I read artist's comments on different stuffs. Also read a few stuff, i mean...my youtube account 'is' 19 or so....

Not that i watch hardcore stuff, but...sometimes when i'm talking about what i've saw. People don't get it...they're just like...'oh..ok...ya kno? i don't rly care~' yes, the people who gave this kind of response are the ones that i know has a 'life'.....

For me, living as a highschool student (atm) and also a interent student artist is enough~ xDD
That shows how lifeless I am, as in 'no life'. I do enjoy some funny BL jokes xDD

So....yeah, people like different things...how did this ever linked to the title?

STUPIDEST THING I'VE DONE!

2010-03-30T17:22:00.000+10:00

I'm sure this isn't the first time, but either will it be the last time. I FORGOT TO BRING MY BIOLOGY ASSIGNMENT! and it was due today, third period....
How can I forget that????!!!!!, when I realize that I didn't bring it...I nearly cried (I swear). Though my eyes weren't red, but I could feel a little bit of warm liquid in m eyes...it dried up soon....Q_Q
I'M SO STUPID!!!!!!
GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
....orz.....

Super Nova count down

2010-03-29T17:42:00.000+10:00

My sister's friends, and her, and I, we're all going to super nova~~~
super nova is an anime convention, where you see cosplayers and awesome ppl =D
love to see ppl i kno there xDD

2010 = 15 age

2010-03-26T18:29:00.000+10:00

it's my brithday today =D
thanks to all who wished me happy birthday
=] i'm 15 from now on (until next b-day)
and most of all, i'd really thank those who said "happy bday" to me on facebook and at school this morning =]
the first blessing, was from an old classmate that i haven't talked to for years. the second one was from another classmate of mine's, who we fight about weather naruto goes with hinata or sakura (fyi: i stand on NARUHINA's side). anyways, the third one was from a friend, that is my mother's friend's daughter, who is older than me one year =D.
THANKIES TO ALL OF THEM!!!
but there was one person that i was expecting....who...totally forgot about it, people's heart change very fast, aren't they?
ANYWAYS, WHY SHOULD I RUIN MY OWN 15 YRS OF LIVING?
this is a way of life...i guess.
ONCE AGAIN. THANKS TO THOSE WHO BLESSED!

road near the light house

2010-03-22T17:10:00.000+10:00

it was all about a manga "eria's 10 wishes" that i was going to do...
but as u probably can tell, 6 out of 10 of the mangas that i want to draw will end up in the middle of my yr 7 math book...
which that means...i never end it..it never had an end....
sad isn't it....
= =
yup it is..
anyways, i'm gonna first finish my english hws now...88

can't say the right things...

2010-03-14T21:17:00.000+10:00

that happened to me last last week?
yeah....
dang it...

Internet died on me

2010-03-13T23:31:00.000+10:00

after trying several times of refreshing the page, the videos still won't show up. refreshing the page won't change the fact that the internet has slow down. when it doesn't speed up, i cannot continue watching anime. oh well..i've still got an essay to write and a math test to review on....
maybe the it died on a perfect time?
dunno~
my room is a mess
i'm just mumbiling random stuffs with spelling errors
:P
i don't feel like sleeping yet...
tho it's 11:35 PM already
>.>
whatever...

I'm a bad judge...

2010-03-08T18:12:00.000+10:00

T_T first of why i'm a bad judge..
i forgot to comment and give ppl opinions D-;
yes, i'm horriable

second....i can't think of what to comment
so i just put it there until it rots (jkjk, not rly)
and it'll lead to the first point >3>

thrid.....i give similar comments to every contestent(sp)

forth, mt spelling sux crap, so i only can use a small range of words

result is, im not worth to be a judge...
i suck
but i'll try my best to give comments
so wait and see ppl!
we'll present high quality fanime!!!
until then, farewell~

NEW POST!!

2010-03-06T09:58:00.001+10:00

i've just made an new flash, go to "little shit that i made"
to see it :D

我不是french wannabe!

2010-03-04T16:59:00.000+10:00

i just thought speaking french was cool and awesome
but i never thought it would lead to the result of "wannabe"
so yeah....i changed the title
when i've learned my full french skills, i'll be speaking in french again =]

epic failed....

2010-03-02T19:57:00.000+10:00

yup i failed on my bio test badly
and didn't get a bit of thing that our math teacher was saying
btw, almost fell asleep
am i born to fail or wat? (yes) shut up
i still have a 800~1000 words of fiction to write
bye~

awesome!

2010-03-02T07:21:00.000+10:00

* ♥`•.¸¸.•´´•:*´¨`*:•.••.¸¸. ´´¯`•♥
想你　　　　想你　　想你　　想你　想你想你想见你
想你　　　想你　想你　想你　　想你　想你
想你　　想你　　想你　想你　想你　　想你想你想见你
想你　　想你　　想你　想你想你　想你
想你　　　想你　想你　　想你想　想你
想你想见你想你想你　　　想你　　　想你想你想见你
* ♥`•.¸¸.•´´•:*´¨`*:•.••.¸¸. ´´¯`•♥

gahh! i got a cold

2010-02-26T19:02:00.000+10:00

yup...just as wat my facebook said
i'm sick
my nose r blocked, my back hurts, also my head
....="= *sniff*

Je ne travaille pas....(I don't work)

2010-02-24T19:57:00.000+10:00

ok...i really need money
i still owe my mom $17...D8
i know, frick!
i'm opening commisions right now, if you have a really awesome heart
PLEASE HELP
.....T_T......

BIO le fin~

2010-02-24T16:48:00.000+10:00

lols, i don't even kno if i can use it like that
just felt like using french~
>.> anywho~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
biology test, OFFICALY is done....so far >P
don't rly wanna talk about this topic anymore
one more art essay to fin~
orz....

OMF GOSH!!!!!!!!

2010-02-21T13:08:00.000+10:00

I'VE MADE IT!!!!! HOLY FRICKEN SHIZ!!! I'VE MADE IT!!!
XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
TODAY'S THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFEEEEE!!!!!
I SWWWWWWWWWWWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Animation Project

2010-02-19T23:21:00.000+10:00

hiyo~
im starting an animation project...accually 2 :P
one of them is highschool random stuffs :P
the other one is fantasy stuff >.> :D

MALE VOCALS WANTED!!!!!
>.> so far...none males came to audition

oh well~
there's a BIO exam on tues.
i think i should worry about that first xD

A fear of...?

2010-02-18T20:25:00.000+10:00

>.> i have a fear of ........sth.......u see everyday....

it probably makes no sense, but if you click my previous entry...you'll know why

the "LIKE I CARE, WANNA KNO HOW I FEEL" one..

stupid PS....

LIKE I CARE! WANNA KNO HOW I FEEL?

2010-02-18T19:53:00.000+10:00

yeah...another boring diary of mine's
FINE! I'LL SAY THE TRUTH
i am jealous of ppl having different kind of friends, when u watch anime, they alwas have interesting lives...
and when you look at yours...pfft! wat's the point, it's full of crap...

when u star at others having hell lot of fun with their friends...look at ur self....using 'art' as a lie to hide yourself...

= = how stupid....

wat inspired me writing this is wat happens after art class
just when i was walking my way towards A block, i saw a pair of friends, having conversation like normal friends suppose to be...just like the animes

yeah, the sun was bright like before, i look down at my self, thinking...
" WHO CARES!!! ITS NOT LIKE YOU HAVE NO FRIENDS...ITS JUST......WE CAN'T BE LIKE THEM...."
lols, the worst thought ever...
>.> this is my logic
and this is wat got me into the easiest math class...*sigh*

why write this, when u kno, no ones gonna read this crap?
well...i dunno, probably u got no one to talk to, even u have, how to say it is gonna be different

this is why i like internet, you can truely "hide" yourself or "present" yourself

whatever whatever, who cares~~~~~~~~

LETS JUST THROW THESE THOUGHTS AWAY, AND FINISH YOUR HW BEFORE 9, AND GET TO BED BEFORE 10:30!!!
there's still a spider in your room you gotta deal with...>.>
dang it, math tmrw...

Attempt on Animating

2010-02-16T20:33:00.000+10:00

...YEAH, we've just made out own studio :D (my sis and i)
it's called "Image Core Studio"
....
whatever, just trying to make a short anime :3
:P
nm
...so far 5 audition vids :3
>3< thx 4 those who auditioned

WIP - Lights Out

2010-02-05T22:43:00.000+10:00

short animation trailer

2010-02-04T07:27:00.000+10:00

DAMN SHIT!!!

2010-02-03T22:21:00.000+10:00

SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I DON'T CARE ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!
MY NEW ANIMATION/TRAILER WAS DELETED BY THE STUPIDNESS OF PHOTOSHOP AND MY COMPUTER!!!!
MY CHARACTER LIST WAS ALSO GONE!!!
NOW EVEN THE INTERNET GONE SLOW

sobber.....

FUC* I HATE THIS SHIT!!!

New pictures~

2010-01-02T23:20:00.000+10:00

Bad luck curse

2009-12-21T01:58:00.000+10:00

OTZ... I just can't escape from the curse of bad luck
im not gonna say the details
cos no one like listening nor reading other ppl's crap
anyways, im gonna go write a story and draw some mangas now
btw, i found a inker, and thats my sis!

we're both so into anime + manga, so why not draw some :P
:D

summer vacation

2009-12-03T13:35:00.000+10:00

YOSH!!! my summer vacation arrived a few days early, but on the airplan...not so good. NEARLY DIED!!! i was vomitting, it was bit embarassing (very!). i tried to hold it, but it only made it worst.

Anyways, im in taiwan now. Bought a few things, met some old friends. Im going to use this summer vacation and try to achieve sth. So maybe some time later im gonna go buy some ink pen and such.

Cya~

Half

2009-11-21T22:29:00.000+10:00

this is a little animation i did while i was bored, every thing in this vid belongs to me except song

New Art work

2009-11-19T18:31:00.000+10:00

yeah, finished this in school, this semester is concentrating on "Landscape"
this painting above is a university in South Brisbane, can't remember which one :S

presure, luck and toughts

2009-11-08T21:16:00.000+10:00

Take a Vote!! -->

2009-11-05T20:05:00.001+10:00

OK, hey guys, yes, I'm writing AGAIN
anyway, after posting this I'll be going offline, this is basically a summary of all manga I'll be doing
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Eira's 10 Wishes
Eira Heather was just a normal teenager, her life is pretty much...plain....just like a sheet of white paper. Nothing more or less, until she met her friends, Kassidy and Dawn. Everything worked out well....good times passes fast. One day Kassidy is leaving, she couldn't help but to be sad. She didn't notice that she was starting to ignore Kassidy. Two days passed, she's still in depression mode, so she went out that afternoon and went for a walk. Suddenly she saw this little corner shop on some street. A little glass tulip head with a green glass body figure caught her eye, she went into the shop and ask the lady how much is it. She never knew that, that little figure would change her life...
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Bottle of Memories
Dawn Shaw isn't a normal teenager, she came from another world. A world full of fantasy creatures and things that human minds will never imagine about. Everything sounded some beautiful, just like a dream, but her world became a nightmare. Where she lived got attack by the neighborhood lands, she was one of the princess in her family, there fore she will have to die. But her body guard saved her, he said "If I didn't come back, don't hesitate or wait, just hold this tightly in your hands" then he gave her an bottle of sparkling feathers. And so he went off to fight, after a long time he didn't return. She did what he said and hold the bottle tightly, suddenly, she found herself lying on a bed. She lost the memories before she transfer to this world....and she'll try to get it back
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Dream of Vision
Kassidy Hat lost her parents since she was 5, so she lived with her cousin. Her cousin is very weak, weak as in, defenseless, can't fight, a very very weak boy. So she teached him how to stand up for himself, but it didn't seems to work. 11 years passed, Kassidy is now 16 years old, and her cousin, Jessie is now 18. She was crossing a road one day, suddenly this truck just ran in to her, she was lying on the ground, lying in her own pool of blood. The last thing she could hear is people yelling, the lights became dimmer and dimmer, her world eventually turned to black. From that day on, she couldn't see, she lost her sight, she also lost the ability to walk. Her legs couldn't move, although they still work. Jessie hated to see Kassidy like this, but he couldn't do anything about it, he can only do what he can right now, and that is to take care of Kassidy. He believes that one day, her sight will come back, and her ability of walking will be back too....
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OK NOW, THAT'S IT, 8D

I don't get it!

2009-11-05T19:46:00.000+10:00

I don't get it, i freaggin don't!!!
Didn't mean to swear or anything, but i am just so pissed!!!
Anyways, I'm gonna just leave it a side right now~

Tmrw, WOOT!
tmrw, at art class, gonna start on clay
i've designed my sculpture
:B
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
yeah yeah, whatever you say, or said
i didn't care~
i dislike going out, so don't force me
becuase, i will really wanna punch u in THE FACE!
staying in my room, drawing, reading, writing, chat with other ppl online
oh yes, that i pretty much my weekend life~

Dance Night

2009-11-03T21:05:00.000+10:00

9:06 PM Tues.

Dance night at BSHS tonight was AWESOME!!!
the dancers are so pro!!!
it's definitely worth going, for those who didn't go, MUST GO NEXT YEAR!!!
seriously, you don't know what you've missed
anyways, gotta go do homework now
:)
ps: NEVER EVER WEAR A PAIR OF SHOES THAT MAKES YOUR FEET HURTS WHEN YOU'RE RUNNING, SERIOUSLY, THATS A BIG NO NO
- poor-feet-christine

your promise is FAKE!!!!!!

2009-11-02T19:09:00.000+10:00

What a tragic ending...
First you said you weren't leaving, then, what a fate!!
You're going at last, how much worst could it be?
Well...I don't know?
People said "you should treasure the moments"
How? it sounds so easy when they say it, but when you're really trying to do it...its hard...

How come I'm listening to a sad song right now? Maybe its because.....you're leaving.....
I hope you never bought the house...am I being too selfish....?
I am terribly sorry, I apologise for my own childish words....
Maybe its time to accept the truth...

How I wish I could be like you, my friend...
Mature, smart, handle situations well
This is one thing that I'll never learn

- To "2" of my Best Friends
- From depression-mode-christine

shizzy!!!!

2009-10-30T16:51:00.001+10:00

D8 halloween is almost here, and i still haven't drawn sth related to it...:(
busy busy busy~
just ended the presentation x3

2009-10-29T06:26:00.000+10:00

The girl on the left is Eira Heather, her story is: Eira's 10 Wishes
The girl that is in the middle is Kassidy Hat, her story is: Dream of Vision
The girl on the right is Dawn Shaw, her story is: Bottle of Memories

For my friends :)
and for the ones that are leaving :(